feelings for friends

You are kindly invited to bring your steel toe boots. I can no longer distinguish reality from what others expect from you. I will lay on the floor and ask you to kick me. Don't think of yourself, just kick and do it with extreme aggression. I need this pain to prove to myself that I still feel. I will hold this feeling and cherish it, nurture it waiting for it to bloom. No one can take it from me, this is all mine. I will not forget this.

Your Humble friend,